As many of you know Ruben Studdard was supposed to be on Friday's show. Those of you who listened obviously know that wasn't the case. 3 minutes before Ruben was slotted to go on I get a phone call from his personal assistant saying he had a "personal emergency " and could not go on. Now what? Time for the back up plan: Linnda talks about her book. So Linnda talks about her book for 15 minutes and I realize at the break that we could not just have Linnda pitch her book for a half an hour, people would probably turn the dial. So I offer to interview her about the book. She said "Yes" and for the next 10 minutes that's what we did.
Isn't God amazing? Turning a disaster into a victory for me? I actually got to talk on live radio! The only other time, I got to do this was when WDBO interviewed me about being a college grad and looking for a job.
That night I headed over to " One Homeless Night", what an awesome night! Hundreds gathered and slept under the I-4 overpass to raise awareness for the homeless. Now I 'll be honest I didn't sleep there, I wanted to but I knew if I did I would probably get sick, I was already lacking sleep and trying to sleep on a piece of cardboard would probably not be good for me. I give mad props to the people who stuck it out all night.
I helped out by working with a documentary film crew, that was pretty cool. I also ran into some WESHers. They asked me if I missed them. I said "yes of course I do, but I don't miss my old job". I have no regrets. I know I made the right choice. Here's how you know when God wants you to do something, your Gut/the Holy Spirit and he says "yes". Now what does this sound like? Well it's just a matter of God opening certain doors for you. I often pray God will not offer me a job he doesn't want me to take or to give me the discernment to know what is an offer from him and offer from the world.
Saturday morning Linnda took me to the Chiropractor...I went there to just get a well check up and turns out I actually have a pretty messed up back and some serious health issues. The problems I deal with on a day to day basis I thought was normal. The doctor starred at me like I was crazy. It probably has a lot to do with my bad diet, lack of sleep and stress. I need to start eating better. Linnda was really worried and took me to whole foods and she bought me some organic foods...was I actually shopping in Whole Foods? Who am I? The more I try to follow God, the more I am losing myself....but I know it's for the best.
Then I went and saw "Tyler Perry's I can do bad all by myself" with my girlfriend. We cried and laughed so hard! I totally recommend it! And you know me I'm such a TP fan I'll go see it with you! I cried a lot afterward too, the movie really hit home with me about some of the things I have done to people in the past, I still carry the guilt with me a lot of times. It's easier to forgive people than forgive yourself.
Someone brought up a good point today at The Sabbath at my house (The Sabbath is a small bible study at my house, we eat, talk about God, right now we are reading "Boundaries in Dating). He said " God forgives me, who I am I to question and disagree with God?". If God forgives me... why can I not forgive myself? Pray for me in this please. I often worry that my own hypocrisy has lead people away from God and this is one of those thoughts that keeps me awake at night. But when I really think about it, each person is responsible for their own actions...you can't let what other people are doing affect who you are. If I did something stupid, and someone is not going to follow God because of it, then their faith isn't that strong to begin with and that is something they have to go and deal with God with. However this isn't an excuse to do whatever and not worry what people think.
Try to be the best example of Christ you can, but if you fall don't beat yourself up about it.We all do. Mistakes are good...if you learn from them. Think about what went wrong, why it went wrong and learn but DON'T DWELL. This is easy said then done, because we are all are own worst critics. Also now you can use those mistakes to teach others...turn disaster into an opportunity to tell people about God's forgiveness....yes you are going to have to be vulnerable here but I gurantee you it's worth it. Your friends will be closer and more meaningful.
God forgives you everyday and everyday you start with a clean slate. Isn't his love amazing? And if God can forgive me, I can forgive me. You don't have to clean yourself up for God for him to love you, he always does. Just come to him, he'll fix you up : ) and come to him every day because I don't know about you but everyday there is something I can work on.
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