After talking with one of my good friends last night she said one thing that frustrates her about me is I have all these great ideas but I don't go through with a lot of them. She asked me why I don't?
I thought about this for a while and I guess the simple answer is fear. Fear that I will fail and let everyone I told down. Fear that I don't have enough information to do the best job possible. Fear that I will become attached to people and they will let me down.
When I started at the NBC affiliate in Orlando, I didn't know much about TV. I didn't even know there was such thing as TV markets. In the U.S. there are 212 TV markets. Big cities like New York, Atlanta and Los Angeles are in the top 10, whereas a small town in Montana would be in the 200s. The lower the number the harder it is to get a job.
Somehow without even knowing this, I landed a job in the 19th market. Not bad right? So why did I get the job over candidates who probably knew more about TV than me? Because I was willing to put in the time! I was willingly to work for free and do small tasks, just to learn about the business. So when the job opened up the manager came to me and asked me if I wanted the job. I didn't even fill out an application till after I was already hired.
It is time to start at the bottom again.
Today I E-mailed a local Christian radio station to ask to volunteer there. I also E-mailed 102 JAMZ (I interned there back in the summer of 06) to see if I could help out with their new Gospel online station. Then I e-mailed some of my media contacts about the Religous Runaway case, as the arraignment is Thursday and I still need a press pass.
In the midst of this I got a phone call from the Orlando Union Rescue Mission. I had called them last week to see if they need any help doing media releases and the woman in charge was so thankful I called, she said they are very understaffed right now and can use all the help they can get. I will be touring the shelter on Friday morning. One of my dreams is to help get a Christian homeless shelter up and running. All it took was one phone call and now I am meeting with the marketing director.
So what to take from all this?
If you have a dream, don't sit there in fear! Take action! Go after it and tackle it! Be Humble! Don't be afraid to do small tasks and work for free for a while. Life is too short to sit around and talk about what you are going to do. I felt that all too much this week after Dave passed away (for those of you that don't know Dave was basically my father figure after my father died, they died on the same day of the year...too weird, obviously a God thing).
If you trust God, know that he will carry you through the times you feel you just want to give up.
If you feel there is something God wants you to do and you haven't done it pray this prayer in Psalms to God right now:
" Send fourth your light and your truth, let them guide me; let them bring me to your holy mountain, to the place where you dwell." Psalm 43:3
You can only get closer to God by being obedient.
And Remember what Joshua told his army "Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Be strong and courageous" You are part of God's army and God will guide you in your battles, you just have to listen to him. If you fail, get right back up and continue fighting.
God Bless!
***The picture on the side was taken when I was interning at 102 JAMZ in 2006. We didn't get paid and we worked in the hot summer heat, but the knowledge we learned was the reward.
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